i discovered recently, that i actually do hate myself, deep down. but hey, i still try to show my happiness, right? that im not taking what i had for-granted?
i actually do hate how my voice is feminine-like. i actually don't like how i behave. it's the truth, and not the lie. i've always wanted to be the quiet type, who only speaks when i need to. who loves reading books (and i do love reading!), who protects his friends with all his strength, who is a very good friend, the person who doesn't express themselves, doesn't need another person for their problems, and the person who is very intelligent and can outsmart those who think they are great. sadly, it's what i only wish i am.
it's not like i'm going to give up. i want to reach for that goal, just like how i want to reach for my dream job. to me, in my philosophy, changing my personality is like adding tea into water... the color of the water changes and stays that way
i won't give up. i'll always be happy as long as i try for what i want, the way i want.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Stay out, it's my world
Don't try to understand someone else's world. It's their world, not yours and it's your world, not theirs. You can never understand their world, you will understand the rules of it.
For example. We will under the the world of the Government's, we may not understand him (matter of fact, I don't think we do), but we know his rules of the world we're living in. (Of course, there are people who don't want to follow this world).
You will never understand my motivations, what I'm planning in my head, what I envision. Only you think it's wrong, but not to another person. They might think it's right. Go ahead and jump to conclusions, but it won't be perfectly clear to you, only the details of it, are.
I don't want you knowing my world, I don't want to know yours. Stay out and it keep it that way. You will never get what I envision and I will never get yours. Simple and done.
"You don't know what I do, you don't know why I do, you don't know how I do it. You don't know what I'm thinking, what I'm planning, and what's going on."
For example. We will under the the world of the Government's, we may not understand him (matter of fact, I don't think we do), but we know his rules of the world we're living in. (Of course, there are people who don't want to follow this world).
You will never understand my motivations, what I'm planning in my head, what I envision. Only you think it's wrong, but not to another person. They might think it's right. Go ahead and jump to conclusions, but it won't be perfectly clear to you, only the details of it, are.
I don't want you knowing my world, I don't want to know yours. Stay out and it keep it that way. You will never get what I envision and I will never get yours. Simple and done.
"You don't know what I do, you don't know why I do, you don't know how I do it. You don't know what I'm thinking, what I'm planning, and what's going on."
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