Cheesy But My Truth

"In this shell, it becomes dark and hallow."

When I re-evaluate myself, over and over, I hate myself, more and more, but I love others more and more. I love how they live much more normal lives. They may note me for my talents, but I note them for being able to love so successfully and move on much more successful than I ever could. I envy their strength, where as I cannot reach that strength. Perhaps it is love that is destroying me, hence why I try to destroy my feelings, but to no avail, of course.

I try to reject the opportunities I get, for it is because I do so care about another, so much that I wish I was not here, quite frequently, but it does not deter me into tears.

For a moment, my damages are only temporarily fixed, when I leave to no man's land, and it's only fixed for a limited time.
Which is why I envy those who are far more stronger than I. I understand the feeling I have, and I only acknowledge it as my darkness.

Oh, how I wish I had no heart. No uncomfortable feelings, right now.

You Didn't Take Your Word

oh yes, i simply love how you wanted to take responsibility over me.

i'd say it was a bad time for you and i. i can't believe you took back your words i simply and absolutely LOVE how i can't trust my entire family. all the more reason that i can't go to college, without something supporting me. i know myself, well enough, that with my current situation, i am not guaranteed succession. I simply love how you underestimated me and in what my plans were. look where i am, now? my school life is going just as i planned, regardless of all the bad luck i have received. it does not deter me. it only angers me more and more. however, even that cannot extinguish my ambitions.

you underestimate me.

i simply LOVE how you took your words back. i simply LOVE how wanted to take responsibility over me. i am not my father. i am not who you think i am. i am to myself. i do not need to explain everything to you, until all my cards have been played correctly. i have my strategies. i have my tactics.

i simply just LOVE how i learned not to trust even family members too much.

i simply LOVE how i know that i do not forgive people. i am that cruel. cruel as the world is to me, and those important to me.

I Once Stated...

"I Have NO interest in you Humans!"

Humans are idiots! A lot of them are pathetic and prefer to be in groups. They're boring, uninteresting. So many of them: stupid.
I don't care about them anymore. They can go die. It has nothing to do with me.

"You." Do you feel that you weren't meant to be born in this galaxy? In this time? I feel like I shouldn't be here. This world... It's most likely a chance that this isn't the only world... No, this universe is vast. I feel like the very few of us shouldn't be here.

Personally, I shouldn't be feeling anything at all.